Am I not wifey material ? Do I not posses the qualities it takes to be considered a males one and only ? Because every relationship makes me question "WTF are we doing here?" Am I your girl , your main ? Are we juas kickin it , like what ?! lemme know !

Guys I am so tired of always being second choice .  When will it be my turn ? Goon is supposed to be my main nigga that's "playing" the boyfriend role but is a fucking actor because again all we're doing is "playing". I've put time into this nigga, took up for him , was considering buying him a pair of 150 dollar sneakers ....mind you he's not even my man ! and the fact that I've told him to call me for two fuckin days now and always comes up with an excuse yet I see him on twitter all friendly with some other bitch , on the phone with her all night and he met her through a fucking social network ! All i can think is thank God my pussy wasn't allowing penetration that day .
(http://smooveeworldnoedges.blogspot.com/2011/12/sighs-sex-hurts-you-guys.html)

I'm over here runnin my mouth about how ima go see him its all about Goon , and yet he worried about everything and clearly everyone BUT me . Fuck no I didn't get him those sneakers for Christmas because as soon as I go back to HU he gone be steppin to the next bitch with the shoes i put on his feet . I can't do this shit anymore . Not just with him but worthless niggas in general . I knew not to let my guard down with him because of the last incident when he played me to the side and now its happening all over again . I can't be mad with anyone but myself because the first time he played me was a mistake, when I took his ass back I made a choice that i'm obviously paying for now . Aint this some shit . Happy fuckin new year .

Smoovee